my heart jump again

It's had been long time i didn't meet D since we separate after CNY week. i want to be friend with him although we not be together again. i try to keep in touch with him for friendship...sms from daily -- weekly -- monthly -- seldom...the most longer i haven't chat with him around 3 months...he still keep escape me since Feb. i not sure why he still escape me, but i just wanna to say hi and be friend like normally....today is the fate we meet once again...at PG8 intel lobby door...when i saw him, my whole body become weak and can't move...while my heart have jump faster...i feel sad when he just wase hand say hi to my friend instead to say hi to me and he directly turn to other way...i have follow him a feel mile and keep looking on him...is he still feel shy to meet me?...my friend told me even outside people also know he escape me...i feel very sad of this...i don't know what should i do for this relationship... :(

Pressure

Today i'm quite pressure. Today counter we can't get 1 sales. I become more down when back to office check my approval found submitted 31 cards just approve 7 cards. Other pending document and rejected. I'm kind of tired and pressure. Night follow Jane go meet customer thought can get 1 sales. However, customer  don't want support me plus she had 1 of RHB card til now. Jane know i'm very pressure and keep advise me and cheer me up. Thanks Jane for being my buddy. She always beside me like Angel.

Fun Day

Today we take a break for having a fun after working whole week non-stop. We went to Taman Tasik Taiping at noon when no customer at PB. There is very wonderful place. We take sampan for kayak. We  take adventure and have fun together. That is the most happiness moment for 3 of us to release our pressure of working.

White Valentine Day

Today is anniversary 1 year of dating. However, the real dating just took 11 months. We both have nothing to talk after wish happy valentine day. :(

Hong Kong + Macau



Hi HK and Macau, here we come and go....i love this trip so much to accompany my mum with a group of aunt. I have meet a lot of prof aunt friends.

 I like below photo so much. I love you mum.

Dell

Today i went to Dell, the 1st person i met at cafe is my ex-boss with John. They both seen too surprise when saw me. Haha.. Boss seen quite geng with his new colour hair. While John seen ok with his job which can have tea time with boss. :)... We chat a while, after that, i follow boss and john up to office. I have breath with fresh air in office which i look back my working place. I'm so happy to meet my friends. I go to me Bee Fung and Asa (Lisa), we talk a while, i get and advise from Lisa as i afraid i get yellow skin due to my liver function not well. After that, i go meet Sam (Samantha), she said my face become round and more beautiful. Haha...after that, i go pain nian with boss, he give me ang pow. :)....Po po (Bee Poh) rushing to go back, i chat with Bee Yean, Sook Yee, Iris, (Pet) Phaik Chen, John and Manoon. I miss to met A ma (Peng Yong) after she had back home. After that, i when to meet sales team, Ross Chan. I bought a laptop bag for my brother. He is very nice person to sell me more cheaper. I'm always buy any dell product from him. ^^.... after that, i had dinner with Sook Yee. She told me a lot of Dell news. I'm quite surprise, happy and sad. A lot of changer when i'm not around. Hope everything will be fine. God bless.

Yellow skin

i'm quite shock when the beautician told me that i have little yellow skin. i follow Jane to 1 of the beautician shop nearby QB, after look on Jane, she to me that my face have little yellow skin, means that my liver (Kua) function not that well. Jane told me if i not care, i will get yellow skin. :(...Beautician told me to eat more protein like soya nut and...., i remember last time i do blitz with Irene, we have go Meiko shop. The person told me that my liver function not good, by looking my blood on my finger. There are 2 person told me the same thing. I start to worry about it. Need to start sleep early before 12pm, drink more water and eat more protein. ....:(

touching

i wanna cry when i saw he write a touching msg.....

u not wrong
me wrong
if i love u deep enough
i should cover ur weakness
sorry

i not sure how deep he love, but i do love....
is our attitude different?...i sometime like to be snail with plant, sometime no, but he like to freedom....

Happy Valentine's day

i wish to all have a nice day with your loved and happy valentine day.

My heart is hard and sad again when i saw a msg from a friend wish me have a sweet sweet night with your loved one, and remember to appreciate what u had and what u gonna have soon. i admit that i do not know to appreciate ppl when they are around with me. I have break and be friend with him yesterday. I know it's not a good time to said it out. However, he know i'm hard to said it out and know what i'm thinking. i do hurt him by asking him 3Q that i wanna to know. I do hope we can be more better, however, after heard his answer, i was sad. I think we be friend more better to let each of us to rest. After we be friend, i be my best to smile like normal friend and we watch movie together. "Once upon the time". last moment said good bye. Although i told him i do not cry after break, but i do cry it on the time he "busy". he said correct, of course we will sad to lost this relationship.

I not sure why i still so silly to whatapps him although we had break on today as i know today is Valentine day. I can't control the feeling with him. Janez ask me correct, do i still love him?. ....

All have pass, i must control my feeling and be happy to be single again. Let be freedom and avoid complicated love.

END OF 2012

Today will be last day of 2012:

Family - This year is most happiness to our family. My 2nd brother have back and join us on CNY 2013. ..\^^/...all family finally gather together.

Friends - I have great buddy of Jane and Irene. Sometime i feel buddy is most important than family and bf. We uses heart to talk and sharing. We understand each other and having joy, sad, emotion, work and play together. Sometime we can't even share to our family but buddy can. Last time Lay Siew is my buddy but some how we both busy to our job until we not even meet a month due to something. However, when i need help, buddy always beside me and have help me a lot. We will success one day. Thanks Jane and Irene for give me a success road and be better person. I am very appreciate it.

Love - I not sure is it we too rush for having this relationship as i keep feel i'm the one ready for this relationship but you not. Somehow my feeling have been hurt by your words but i can't telling out. Sometime, i need your help, but you not always with me. Sometime, i feel so sorry to you cause i donno how to cool down your emotion. The last, i still not confident of myself, til one day, i will confident of myself.

Work - There are many part of road we can choose to go and the tool can can success in future. However. i still can't find myself where to go. Each road have stone in front of the road which you need to be more challenge to past through. I use to be in company job after graduated for 2 years. i feel i have been wasting time as i saw rounding of my friends have a car and house since SPM last 5 years. I feel so late of myself for starting to having this war. i know that will the way to success but not everyone is suitable. i tell myself to use 6 months of time out from company to choose my road. However, i become more confuse of the road i'm choosing. Many of my friends out there ready for helping me but i still can't decided which i should choose for my suitable. Last week my friend meet me up for sharing another opportunity. I agree of he said we will success one day, up to which tool we use it. (@@). My head is headache.

God - I'm Buddha. Most of my friends have been turn to Christian, even my 2nd brother back from Australia. He being good attitude than the past few years. I do believe all god. My colleagues ask my again yesterday when will i be Christian. I can't answer it. I keep think of my family as my parent disagree of it. Why i can't decided for myself.

GOD, pls give me a road how to decided.

Nortern Music Festival

today Dell volunteer at Botanical Garden for this event, i feel so great to join this activity...have a great fun for shooting great photo and enjoying the music...

more photo: Nortern Music Festival photo

Photo shooting

today we have photo shooting...i have been fool by PP, Edward and JH said lady wear all white include skirt...i tell them i don't have skirt...but pp said will borrow me...then we meet...pp and her cousin Annie didn't wear skirt...they want to take portrait and ask me be their modal...T_T...but anyways, thanks to them for taking me so beautiful...haha...my 1st time be pose...i still waiting for the photo process...we have a nice photo shooting this morning at sg. batu...

on afternoon, i went to Elken class...today topic about DX TTT...we all have a chance to try on the DX...LY and i don't have boots...haha...too small til cannot seen it...they said nvr have seen DL no body at all...T_T.....haha....we learns a lot on the class...thanks to Chiam and Aries...

Genting and KL

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EarthQuake

today 11042012, we all feel Earthquake 2 times...around 4pm something and 6pm something...the earthquake came from Aceh, Indo...8.6....quite high...alarm given "do not go near the sea"...all said might be tsunami...which happen before on 2004 Christmas eve....i still remember it...god, please bless all of us...

Celebration PY b'days

PY birthday on 5 Apr...however, we delay to today for celebration...i found a buffet on groupon thought could be nice for treat her eat as many as she can....however, when we went there, the food seen not much and nice...but still can accept...a lot of bbq and tom yam steamboat....hot food for us...we have buffet at Rainbow Paradise Beach Hotel...not many white ppl...but seen many malay....haha....today is very happy day...hope PY happy too...

End of March

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SAMAN

today is my 1s time get a big SAMAN from traffic police...RM300...!!...i don't think at all...as the road from sungai are to relau, normally all ppl drive the same way...but i just feel i'm very unlucky that i be the one in yellow box on today night....just meet my matrix freind ZL who last day at Dell to have dinner...thought very happy but very bad luck...i have nothing to said about it...

White Valentine day's

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Weekend break

finally come to our team own trip...last 2 days on sat and sun, we had our trip to Cameron Highland....with 2 car of total 9 ppl....we stay at Parkland Hotel cost RM450 per night...Lisa be our finance....hehe...we paid RM150 for our food....we having a great fun together...we eat, sleep, laugh, talk, and....together to build our relationship...the trip was unforgottable...

MY LOVER PHONE

finally i had bought my lover phone yesterday...thanks to my buddy for helping me to find the phone...i bought HTC Rynme at Pragin which cost RM1320 if paid my cash....which is creaper than my buddy friend shop cost me RM1450 that make me wait 2 month still no phone...by the way, i love plum color, however, the sales person said no plum color will be in Malaysia...so sad...only clearwater have in here...so i bought that color...no plum, but clearwater look no bad too...love the phone so much...finally i have smartphone which can whatapp to friends again...miss it....