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today i feel very sad as like yesterday....yesterday i do a series mistake that can effect to Dell company AR...but boss didn't scold me...he talk to me and advise me...i very grateful to have a great boss...as i know i had do mistake...but now is finding the way to no happen this case again...i will remember for it as if the money can't get back...need to pay ourself....the series i mistake is >RM20k....i need work more than 2 years only can pay back if that money can't get...feel so sorry for my mistake to get other people feel uneasy to me...as boss show me that LCC (other manager) had complain about me to him...the series case same what i had done for it...i don't know what to said...but i won't run aways if that case can't solve it, i will response for it...

2nd case was recently i just took prepayment job...as previous got poh poh helping all of country...but because our team left so many people...so our job become more...i miss the time i came and work with PY....feel so free...then after PY, SZ and AL resign...i have do 2 people job....then now prepayment come...equal 2 and half people job...but i try to do my best fast fast and fast....other manager S had call to suggest me on something that suppose need to do our all of us easy job as i always follow the older format...i think i need to rethink all again and try to use my way and not follow the old format....thanks to manager S for the suggestion...

3rd case is today....about refund....as previously i got ask them for the amount, they said correct...then i thought bs haven't reflected until i forgot about it and didn't run report...suddenly they ask again today why didn't raise as got reflected..i recheck again the report and the mail only know where have i done wrongly....apologize many times still not use....i really need to becareful....anything also i wrong...feel like i had being black list in here as got other manager complain....

i feel very sad....feel wanna change to new environment....but i can't run aways....someone please help me...feel so tired....